woah! i din mean to make an entire folder fer tis! haha! got folder and title all mixed up. sheeesh! anyways, tis will be a first of one! haha! so dun get overwhelmed.
+yawns+ woke up late today.. it’s monday, my off day.. last week started pretty lame. just shufflin work.. no invites to hang out till like the weekend.. so yea.. i went to the gym after work, as usual. heee.
in all shitness tradition, i had my share of shitsickles last week too. i can’t fret bout it.. but i can blog all i want. haaaa! t’was a month ago when i started to befriend some old flame.. felt guilty on how we ended up..was cold towards her after the break-up.. and thought it was bout time i gave her a beep. we exchanged messages fer quite some time..and honestly? i felt good textin her.. to know tat she was doin fine..i was even imaginin us, goin out casually. i got so engrossed wit the thought tat she and i would probly be friends again.even invited her to some scuba exploration thing..(she declined though coz of some unfortunate event)..
somethin tragic happened to one of her family member.i was so concerned tat i called her up..and asked if she was ok..the first decent oral conversation in 6 months! beat tat! heee..
like 2 weeks after tat, i asked her if she wanted to go out and help me look fer a pair of pants..she declined coz of some previous engagement she committed herself into..i thought, maybe some other time..then started to imagine us goin again..maybe haf some pasta (tat’s her favorite) …but alas! all fairytales come to a twisted sadistic end…..
a common friend asked me in a text why she and i broke up..as the knight tat i am, i answered, " whatever she told u, tat’s the truth". (shiny medal of honour hangin round my neck.tadah!) ..then she replied, "so u mean or gay?" …and i replied.. "MOTHAFUCKA! , did she really say tat?" .."tat’s what she told me and all her friends after u broke up.apparently, she got angry wit one of ur guy friend, then u went back at her by breakin her heart" (these are not the exact words..but What the hell!?) .. can u imagine the devil bathing in a pot of melting lava over an oven? ..tat’s how hot i got! sheesh!
i confronted her wit text messages, she got to reply like 2 or 3 times..then stopped replyin when i sent a message, "…. please dun lie to me"
where does she get off wit all these lies? was i mean to her? did i really do anythin tat bad to deserve tis? to think i was even considerin reconcilin…
the rather sad part is my mum and her were in constant communication during these times.. they even went out fer dinner. sigh. i dun even haf the guts to tell my mum tat her favorite ex gf of mine spread tat nasty rumor bout me..
the sadder part.. i dun even believe tat she really did care fer me.
i told my friends and my sis bout tis, they were all so mad..who can blame em?..she seemed so friendly before. my closest friends know the reason why we broke up. tat’s enough fer me.
to her
i said tis before, and i know it means shit. im sorry fer hurtin u tat way… and im sorry now. if i caused all the burden in hell to be thrusted upon ur shoulder.. im sorry.
this is not a personal vendetta against her..just sharin my thoughts..i was furious in the beginnin, but after she sent tat message, "…anong problema mo?(what’s ur problem?)" kinda realized… yea.. tat’s not my problem anymore.. not a problem at all
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