bad trip. no thanks.

200 bucks fer 5 hours?
tat's a bargain, dawn thought.
5 hours of motorcycling galore. haha
so he and best bud wee decided to tag along their roommates.
"i'll just ride along wit you best.", wee said.


dumaguete is a real small city.
5 minutes drive from the dorm would take you to the shoreline.
10 minutes is already out of town.
hehe.
Valencia is always a good spot to drive through.
great view.
cold breeze.
dawn's was the last motorcycle in a convoy of five.
wee wasn't tat comftable ridin wit dawn.
he just started learnin.
a week, tat's it.
i'm so gonna die a virgin, wee panicked.
haha.
the guys ahead of 'em were pretty fast drivers.
, and dawn wasnt willin to eat dirt.
uphill now.
"man, you dunno how to drive uphill!"
"slow down jackass!", wee nagged him.
so he did.
talk bout brisk walkin.
the road was pitch black.
the only visible light was tat of their bike.
and the others were nowhere in sight.
"wee, there's somethin on curve up ahead"
-"geez. tricycle ata."
indeed it was.
a really messed up ride at tat.
"must've drove so fast down the curve"
- "let's help"
the driver was covered in blood, unconscious.
his bike turned over and fell wit its dead weight on his leg.
it was impossible fer 2 really thin guy to lift the tricycle.
well just enough to get the guy out.
at round 2am.
there was no help close.
"i've been here before dawn, during the dayight"
"... and the nearest house is like a mile downhill"
-"yea i know, and it's damn cold."
wee tried texting the others fer help.



the two then concentrated on lifting the ride off the guy.
in a sitting position.
sweating now.
out of the darkness came two men.
hmmm. slippers. old ones.
seemed natives.
as the 2 men started lifting the side-car, the 2 buddies hurriedly pulled the guy out.
the light of bike made like a 3-meter radius around the wreck.
still sittin wit the injured driver,
wee noticed pairs of legs just along the light.
women and children.
they must be wit the 2 men who helped us, wee thought.
too occupied to even bother.
"whew! glad you're here"
dawn was relieved to see their other mates arriving.
everyone rushed to dawn's aid.
one mate volunteered to drive the tricycle wit the injured to the docs.


E.R. now.
dawn was inside filling up some form, answering questions.
the others were in the parking.
wee was by the door waitin fer his bud.
"san nyo ba nakita yun sir?", a security guard asked.
tryin to collect himself, wee said, "Valencia manong"
the guard was insisting wee to describe the exact place.
woah, you're persistent.
he really din know the place, so he described the drive leadin to tat place.
"ndi na yun Valencia sir"
-"ah ganun ba", sarcastic now.
"buti walang nagparamdam sa inyo dun"
a sudden twinge.
-"huh?"
"matagal na kasi walang nakatira dun banda..."
duh, it's private property, wee thought.
"...mga 40 plus years na rin"
his eyebrows met.
-"there were people who helped us..."
"isang barangay yun sila sir, sinunog ng mga hapon mga bahay nila"
"habang natutulog"
"dami nga mga babae at bata nun, kawawa"
gulp.
"walang nangangahas na tumigil dun sa parte na yun"
"marami nagpapakita eh"





no way!


tsk tsk.
bad trip.

Bad trip. Two close fer comfort.

“what the hell! It’s freakin hot!”
‘tis comin from a helper who accompanied me I the front seat.
I probly shon’t be teachin ‘em English.
Hehe.
Not curse words at anyways.
As usual, my blasted dino car acted up again.
Bad civic!
No aircon.
Sunday is work day fer me.
Usually spend half the day at the shop.
Still, tat’s work. Lazy ass.
Haha.
Had to drop by torres fer a quick delivery.
Jun, my helper din show up.
Dang! And I had a hangover too.


The city hasn’t completely used the new traffic system yet.
Actually when they first ran it… spell chaos.
Even heard mayor got pissed.
So they decided to skip some blocks,
And shut ‘em off.
Magallanes corner Quirino was one of those shut off.
Halfway through tat crossing,
I noticed the red light above me.
“doesn’t tat mean stop, not? (my nickname)”,
Mickey exclaimed.
I haulted.
Already occupied the adjacent lane when tat happened.
Gulp.
My first instinct was to do a reverse real quick.
And I did.
Almost hit a cab behind me.
There he was in front of me.
The green nightmare of all motorists,
Traffic cop.
“Go straight ahead, then pull over the curve”
Im in deep shit.


“chief, I din realize they turned tat thing on”,
I hurriedly explained, as I rolled my window down.
-“tsk tsk”
-“pangatlong araw na po ngayon sir”
While reaching fer this book of ticket violations.
-“license and registration please”
I was sweatin like a pig.
The humidity din help too.
“it’s my first time violation sir”
“swear to god”
Hittin my forehead wit my palm.
So stupid, I thought.
Constantly shakin my head back and forth.
And he bought it.
He actually let me off the hook.
Sigh.
Couldn’t stop trembling.
Things like ‘tis don’t happen to people like me.
I’m a freakin careful driver.
Haha.
Such a sissy.
My passenger was laughin the entire trip back.
Tsk.
You’re so gonna get fired.
Heh.


‘Tat incident got me real paranoid.
It has been a week since tat stupidity.
Same block,
Hmmm. Ok green means go.
It was night then.
A cop pointed to the curve again.
JesusMaryAndJosesph!
What did I do now!?
-“defective headlight sir”



Geez


-“oie! It’s no longer your first time”,
‘wit a grin on his face.
Almost insulting.



Good God!
You thought right.
It’s the same cop!
Talk about bad luck.
‘tis is gettin really ridiculous.
“fine. Gimme the ticket”




Tsk tsk.

Badtrip.

Bad trip. attack of the serial-liar gf.

I met her in the most unexpected time.
Three months after my graduation to be exact.
Idealistic brat, tryin to make his way.
A friend asked fer a favor,
“can you help me find a new flat?”
A bum in the couch, I said yes.
I was bored anyways.
Hmmmm.
Always thought tis gal had a crush on me. Lmfao.

“let’s drive by Jacinto to fetch my roommate”
-“sure thing”
It’s been ten minutes,
And I double parked.
Where the hell is tis roommate?
Almost lunch time then.
Out of the heavy traffic frontin ateneo gate,
Came tis chinita girl. Kaye.
All smiles, pouts.
Hint of apology.
Hmmmm.
A bit agitated coz of the dozens of cars congestin behind me.
She went into the car, then I drove off.

The scorchin heat of the sun got into my nerve.
We really din haf any destination.
Damn aircon is bein stupid too.
Argh.
“Somewhere downtown, near my school would be good”, Kaye said.
So we’ll be drivin around the entire afternoon. Haiz.
Around 5’2” in height.
The most cheerful personality.
All the while I was drivin, she kept sharing gory stories.
Of her exploits in the ER of the medical center.
Still grumpy, I glanced at the rear view mirror.
Hmmmm.
Oddly interesting.
Not a fan of stories involving blood. Hehe
My tensed expression turned into disgust.
But I was eager to listen though.
Bit by bit, I found myself attracted to her.
She was still wit her bf then, who was my arch nemesis.
Didn’t know.
To cut the story short, I bumped into her three months later.
Fortunately, she was unattached.
Realized she was into me, so we hit off.

A month into the relationship.
Out of absolutely nowhere,
She said,
“you should’ve met my dad, he was pure Taiwanese”
-“oh ok.”
Which later on waived, when I met her sister.
“tipid talaga yun si dad eh, kapampangan kasi”
-“oh ok?”
Not tat it mattered.
She was a caring girl.
Even saw myself bein wit her longer.
At one time she told me she also teached yoga at certain a gym.
-“oh ok.”
Which proved to be a lie, when I transferred to tat gym.
Haiz.
No tat it had any bearing.
Well aside from the flebility factor. hehe
Months passed and the white lies kept comin.
It seemed tat the lies are real to her.
I mean, it seemed tat these things are true to her.
Weird.
I would ask her where she is.
And she would tell me some location,
Tat I would eventually go to…
But guess what?
She wasn’t there.
Lies tat didn’t matter if it happened, or not.
She would make up a story right then and there,
My brows would meet, it’s obviously a lie.
Tis’ is tiring, I thought.
Annoying even.


We were in a club at one time.
It was her grad after-party.
Her ex was there.
Pissed, I told her,
“it’s gettin late, let’s go home”
-“one sec, gotta get my locker keys from Darl at the VIP”
Met her ex by the door.
I went in wit her, holdin her hand.
In the middle of the crowd, I felt her let go.
Tight crowd, I thought.
Saw her went up.
5… 10… 15 minutes.
What’s happenin up there?
“I’ll just go on home.”
“I’ll call her later.”
As I was bout to get into my car, she shouted,
“hun, I’m here.”
Raised her right hand, showin me the keys.
What the hell?
Those look exactly like her flat keys.
Key chain and all.
Darn furious, I was quiet the entire drive home.


Was thinkin of ending the relationship the next week.
Bumbed into Darl.
“Hey. Sorry wasn’t able to bump into you at POPS”
-“huh? When was tis actually?”
”Your grad night”
-“I went home. Spent time at our province”



Oh ok.
It’s over.


Tsk tsk.
Bad trip.

bad trip. detour. ( a more serious note )

boy glances at girl,
took his breath away.
time passed, but he never got to know her.
2 years, is more like it.
at a beach party, he saw her familiar face.
"siya yun"
common friends, so he took her number.
"hey i'm louie, from the party, hope you dun mind tat i textd you"
"sure thing"
i know tis is a cliche, but she was no ordinary girl.
she enjoye playin pool.
wall-climbs.
well-read.
opinionated.
oddly enough, enjoys everythin the boy does.
a week of texts and calls, were more like years.
he could finish her sentences,
she could understand his clumsiness.
maybe it's time to go out, the boy thought.
so he asked.
"i dunno bout tat", she replied.
gimik tonight.
"still, i just wanna see you"
persistent tat he was, he got her to agree.
"since you dun haf a favorite cake, let mine be yours"
the card said.
tat's the cheesiest.
"i'll just take you to tat bar myself"
he had never been tat eager before.

waited at her gate fer quite some time.
then she went in the car.
"hi"
"hello"
a school boy wit a crush.
tat's what he thought.
it was a very short drive, but he'd never been happier,
in such a long time.

days passed, and he slipped in deep.
everythin was good, never really expectin anythin.
just enjoyin the moment.
in the middle of late conversations over the phone,
she asked, "what do you want out of this?"
she caught him offguard.
one moment they were agreen bout mellow music bein redundant,
the next thing she asked him what were his plans.
"hmmmm"
bein speechless is not somethin his familiar wit.
"get to know you more"
- "and?"
"i dunno"
- "do you expect me to be your girl?"
"uhmmm.. i dunno"
- "you better stop then"







pale as grey.
felt like someone close to him died.
a bucket of freezin cold water over his head.
plus the bucket.
ouch.





"im not ready fer anything serious right now"
"im not even lookin fer a fling"
"so stop whatever it is your planning"


what is he supposed to do?
tat's a classic in-your-face shooin.
haiz.


so he stopped.
and they stopped.

it's a pretty small city.
they were bound to bump into each other.
a famous club.
she was anchored to some guy's arm.
he was cuddlin some girl while quein fer the loo.
he stood right up at the sight of her.
a nod.
show of teeth. oh, a smile. a scary one.


vodka bottles, and half a dozen girlfriends later..
still he reacts tat way whenever she's in the room.
worse, when she tries to talk to him.
it wasn't love, he believes.
tsk tsk,
but as he said before, "i never met anyone like her before"


tsk tsk

bad trip.

bad trip. not-so-blind date.

tis happened way back.
hafen't really been dating much since ceejae.
months even.
those were the times when i was such a gym rat.
it helped wit the heartbreak. hah.
dating slipped my mind really.
not until krishna, the receptionist,
started forwardin messages from tis girl.
i never gave tat much attention to it,
but then it became more frequent.
i got curious, and asked krish to point her out from the crowd.
unfortunately, she gets out, by the time she gets in. bummer.
later on, eager as hell, i agreed to a blind date tat weekend.
krish gave our numbers to each other.
hmmmm.
still, i had doubts.
some rats in the gym told me she was pretty.
a bit chubby though.
but still pretty.
hehe.
then saturday came.
reservations in a bistro. like 400 bucks per head.
followed by a film.
at least tat was the plan.

she approached me and asked, "are you louie?"
i said yes, "are you toooooot!!!?" (haha. i think she's here)
stood up, to grab her a seat.
she said thank you.
hmmm. pretty indeed.


face of an angel.


chubby? yea, kinda.


she asked me to order fer both of us,
so i did.
"t-bone steak and fillet mignon fer the lady"
"medium rare please"


the conversation din go quite well.
every time i gave a compliment,
she'd intercept wit somethin negative bout her body and weight.
it was ok the first 2 times,
but it got old, and i got pissed.
hehe.
talk bout insecurities.


when i was done eatin,
i noticed only a quarter of the hearty portion of the steak was eaten.
holy quacomoli!!
and she had extra rice!
furck tat.

kung alam ko lang na ganun, eh di nagPENONGS na lang sana kami!
all you KAN-ON pa dun.
sheeeet!
talk bout feeding your insecurities.
haha.
chubby? more like chuboy!


"are you gonna finish tat?", i asked.

so i did.
no more film fer you.
no more second date too.


tsk tsk
bad trip.

bad trip. not erotic,

monday is off day.
2.30pm now.
slackin off. bummin round.
surfin the tube fer 3 hours straight.
too many channels, nothin to watch.
while lyin in bed, a thought entered my mind.
a dirty thought at tat.
hafen't done tis in a bit.
hmmm. happy go jackie? haha.
turned my lappie on, to surf fer some goodstuff.
hmmm. spankwire.
cranked up the volume of my tube,some local channel,
to cover up some unnecessary noise.
haha. kinky.
can't hide the excitement.
tv at max.
browsin fer some teen action.
hmmmm.. nice.
some hot blond sitter gettin flopped.
dang.
shifting my head to get a better view.
haha. hot some more.
reaching under my pants.
reaching..
holding..




"Pumanaw ka Hesus...."
the 3 o'clock habit.






Wth!
i am most certainly goin to hell.
haha.
how can i go on wit tat.
rushed to stop.
goin to nap.

bad trip.

The Mummy 3.: tomb of the dragon emperor. (review)

The feisty couple, Rick and Evelyn O'Connell (played by Brendan Fraser and Maria Bello respectively), returns in this third installment of The Mummy. The film begins with a narration of the rise of Emperor Han, who built the Great Wall of China amidst strong conflicts between the Chinese people. Han, played by Jet Li, conquered every town and city, enslaved the citizen, and to build the Great Wall. Those who opposed him were buried beneath the walls. Han conquered not only the physical world, but also the five elements. Alas, there was one thing he could not conquer, and that was death. Upon hearing that a witch, Zi Yuan (Michelle Yeoh), knew the secret of immortality, he hurriedly commanded General Ming to fetch her. Han was smitten by the beauty of Zi Yuan, consequently declaring that no one is to touch her. Alas, Zi Yuan and the general fell in love while searching for the spell that could grant the emperor his wish. Not realizing that the emperor knew of their treachery, Zi Yuan supposedly casted the immortality spell unto Han. The emperor then took Zi Yuan to the balcony and became witness as her love was torn apart by horses. Dragging him from limb to limb. Zi Yuan then revealed that she casted Han a curse instead. One that turned him and his army into statues.
Present time, the late forties. All seemed hopeless for a group of Archaeologists, who are desperately in search of the remains of the Han Dynasty. Until a young man, named Alexander O' Connell (Luke Ford) came along. The defiant offspring of Rick and Evelyn.
The couple, now retired for quite some time, are missing their adventurous journeys. So they thought. They were given the pleasure of returning the Eye of Shangri-La to China. The family then reunites at Jonathan's club, the Imhotep, in a not so heart-warming fashion. Soon they discover that everything was planned out to resurrect Han. Leading them to embark in an extraordinary journey to save the world.. again.

The Mummy franchise started the trend of digital evolution on film. Not the first, but one of the pioneers. Growing up watching the first and second installments really had me all juiced up for the third one. A year or so passed, then I got to see the trailer. I said to myself, "wow, this would be good". But wait, where the hell was Rachel Weisz? The film wouldn't be complete without that sexy English accent. apparently, she declined to be starred in this installment. As optimistic as I am, I thought the actor didn't really matter. The story does. So i thought.
It was tragic. One scene after the other. The characters got old, and so did everything else. Rick's sarcasm, the one-liners. Jonathan's clumsiness and luck. Don't get me started with Eve's fake accent. What in hell were they thinking? I want to give a blow by blow review of each scene, but I can't. This film was so overrated. It's like something was brought back from the dead. Stinks!

Flashback into Ancient China was good. Nothing fancy with special effects. Great details on costumes, location and stunts. Michelle Yeoh's acting was impeccable as ever. Jet Li should have been given more lines. English lines for that matter. Nonetheless, he delivered he's acting quite nicely. For the record,the reason why I'm not giving this a 1 rating, it's because of the Asian actors. Thank God for Asian actors!

Dark Knight (review)

Christian Bale returns as Bruce Wayne, aka The Batman, in this second franchise of the beginnings of the superhero that everyone is greatly familiar of. Gotham City has never been as peaceful, as this winged "vigilante" started roaming the streets. Criminal elements has never been so fearful of committing their unlawful deeds. Seems the joke was on the Bat. Along came The Joker, played by the late Heath Ledger. A sadistic criminal who's absolutely incapable of showing emotions. He believes that all human beings are the same. Once beaten to a pulp, cornered, or left without any choice, one will choose to do to an evil thing. He doesn't get contentment with money or any other material thing. He's primary goal is to create chaos. Always with a disturbing grin on his face, The Joker continuously provokes the Bat by instilling fear on people with attacks on prominent figures. People who believes that Gotham should remain peaceful, and kept the infamous criminals behind bars. One who strongly objects to these violent senseless criminal acts is Harvey Dent, Aaron Eckhart. An on-the-rise lawyer, bound to climb the political ladder.

The lives of these three main characters soon intertwine. Familiar characters in a not-so familiar set-up. Christopher Nolan outdid himself this time. The film absolutely gave justice to the trailer. One would presume that it'll be really dragging, because of the length. We're talking bout 2 hours and 45 mins here. They actually pulled it off, compared to Spiderman 3 (what a doozy). It would seem that the explosions and violent scenes are redundant, but they're not. Thank "Bourne Identity" for the vivid fight scenes. It all started with that film, gotta give them credit. Unlike the previous Batman sagas, which stars George Clooney, Michael Keaton and Val Kilmer, this franchise has proven itself consistent. Less of the fantasy, more on the reality. It's more appealing to a more mature audience. Characterization and casting is superb. Harvey Dent's (Eckhart) character and origin as the two-face, was greatly emphasize, yet subtly supported the two main characters'. James Gordon's (Gary Oldman) character gave a great deal of support to the protagonist too. Though not thoroughly elaborated, some scenes of his becoming the great ally of the dark crusader, was apparently seen in the film. Of course, let's not forget about Maggie Gyllenhaal who played Rachel Dawes. The Gotham assistant D.A. and childhood friend of Bruce Wayne, one of the few people who knows the identity of the dark hero. She was perfectly casted. Less emphasis on sex, more on the darker side of Gotham and the action sequences. The rave about Heath Ledger portraying the Joker, doing an outstanding job? all true! The next Joker definitely gonna have some big shoes to fill in. Two thumbs up for the late actor. Makes one think really, Who's the dark knight? The Joker or the Bat?

Fallen on ABC (review)

Jealous Lucifer waged war on Heaven - and lost. The Creator imprisoned him in Hades and exiled his disloyal followers. These Angels fell to Earth, where they corrupted humans and sired Nephilim. Enraged, the Creator rejected those offspring as abominations and sent fierce warrior angels calle the Powers to purify the Earth. Based on the novel of Tom Sniegoski. This 3-part mini series revolves around the becoming of a Nephilim (a half mortal half angel entity), Aaron Corbet, played by Paul Wesley. It is said that when a Nephilim apporaches his 18th birthday, he gains the power of an angel. Corbet always had some kind of vertigo attacks, but this got worse when he turned eighteen. Gradually, this sickness turned into something extraordinary. He was able to understand and speak foreign languages, more so, he was astonished to realize that he can speak to his dog Gabe. He learned that it is but normal for Nephilims to have such abilities, upon crossing paths with a Fallen (an exiled dis-winged angel), but so he knew.

A prophecy was foretold, that a Nephilim will save the Fallen and take them back to heaven. Little that Corbet know, that he's the Redeemer. The Powers (winged angels) were always in pursuit of the many Fallen and their offspring, the Nephilims, and Corbet was no exception. With the help of a converted Power, Corbet seeks answers of his origin and redeem the Fallen. The young Redeemer meets other characters along the way, and consequently, Aaron Corbet uncovers the truth behind his identity, and some more.

Stories of heavenly beings never get old, that's why this mini series is appealing to almost everyone. The existence of winged creatures with human forms, lurking Earth, would be exceptional. When a film, a series in this matter evolves itself in Prophecy (associated with some truth), the public can't help but watch. The screenplay writer focuses on the lead's continuous discovery of himself, which is always a good thing, because the viewers unravel every bit of the story, the same time as the lead character does. The series is under ABC family in the US, so kid's can enjoy it, but with the company of some elders. Angel fanatics wouldn't be disappointed, so goes with viewer's who are particular with special effects. I would give it 7 out 10 for special effects and animation. There are some glitches, but the storyline compensates. The characters play their role fairly, nothing exceptional though. Bryan Canston, the character who played Lucifer Morningstar wasn't that convincing though (see link, http://a51.abcfamily.go.com/shows/fallen/fallen/cast.html). As one could remember, he played Malcom's father in the comedy series Malcom in the Middle. No matter how he changed his facial expression, one wouldn't take him seriously. Imagine the fighting scene, heh.. it's a laugh. I'd give this a 3, but, because of the length, special effects, and of course, moral story towards the end, i'd give it a FOUR.

Hot Fuzz on HBO (review)

Simon Pegg stars as officer Nicolas Angel. An outstanding police officer in London's Metropolitan Police Service. He was so good even that he out wits every law enforcer in his rank, leaving his colleagues unacknowledged, hence the tension between him and his fellow officers. His superiors later decided to transfer him to small town to avoid conflict. Sanford was a perfect town, with a crime rate of zero for the past 20 years. The perfect town for Sergeant Angel not to get noticed... so everyone thought.

British humor was delivered with utmost timing. It's a bit difficult to understand if you don't fancy British films. Some of the funniest lines were delivered quickly with sarcasm and less drama, so you have to listen attentively.

The relationship between the 2 lead actors develop from seemingly awkward to oddly close. One would notice at first that they are the exact opposite, but gradually builds this bond, and consequently discovering that they are more alike than they think.
If you have a weird fantasy of killing elderly people, im talkin bout blood spattering, bodies blowin all over here. Well this film is for you. i haven't seen the uncensored version yet, but on gruesomeness with the cadavers and on shooting scenes, i give this action-comedy a thumbs up!

here’s to her

woah! i din mean to make an entire folder fer tis! haha! got folder and title all mixed up. sheeesh! anyways, tis will be a first of one! haha! so dun get overwhelmed.

+yawns+ woke up late today.. it’s monday, my off day.. last week started pretty lame. just shufflin work.. no invites to hang out till like the weekend.. so yea.. i went to the gym after work, as usual. heee.

in all shitness tradition, i had my share of shitsickles last week too. i can’t fret bout it.. but i can blog all i want. haaaa! t’was a month ago when i started to befriend some old flame.. felt guilty on how we ended up..was cold towards her after the break-up.. and thought it was bout time i gave her a beep. we exchanged messages fer quite some time..and honestly? i felt good textin her.. to know tat she was doin fine..i was even imaginin us, goin out casually. i got so engrossed wit the thought tat she and i would probly be friends again.even invited her to some scuba exploration thing..(she declined though coz of some unfortunate event)..

somethin tragic happened to one of her family member.i was so concerned tat i called her up..and asked if she was ok..the first decent oral conversation in 6 months! beat tat! heee..

like 2 weeks after tat, i asked her if she wanted to go out and help me look fer a pair of pants..she declined coz of some previous engagement she committed herself into..i thought, maybe some other time..then started to imagine us goin again..maybe haf some pasta (tat’s her favorite) …but alas! all fairytales come to a twisted sadistic end…..

a common friend asked me in a text why she and i broke up..as the knight tat i am, i answered, " whatever she told u, tat’s the truth". (shiny medal of honour hangin round my neck.tadah!) ..then she replied, "so u mean or gay?" …and i replied.. "MOTHAFUCKA! , did she really say tat?" .."tat’s what she told me and all her friends after u broke up.apparently, she got angry wit one of ur guy friend, then u went back at her by breakin her heart" (these are not the exact words..but What the hell!?) .. can u imagine the devil bathing in a pot of melting lava over an oven? ..tat’s how hot i got! sheesh!

i confronted her wit text messages, she got to reply like 2 or 3 times..then stopped replyin when i sent a message, "…. please dun lie to me"

where does she get off wit all these lies? was i mean to her? did i really do anythin tat bad to deserve tis? to think i was even considerin reconcilin…

the rather sad part is my mum and her were in constant communication during these times.. they even went out fer dinner. sigh. i dun even haf the guts to tell my mum tat her favorite ex gf of mine spread tat nasty rumor bout me..

the sadder part.. i dun even believe tat she really did care fer me.

i told my friends and my sis bout tis, they were all so mad..who can blame em?..she seemed so friendly before. my closest friends know the reason why we broke up. tat’s enough fer me.

to her

i said tis before, and i know it means shit. im sorry fer hurtin u tat way… and im sorry now. if i caused all the burden in hell to be thrusted upon ur shoulder.. im sorry.

this is not a personal vendetta against her..just sharin my thoughts..i was furious in the beginnin, but after she sent tat message, "…anong problema mo?(what’s ur problem?)" kinda realized… yea.. tat’s not my problem anymore.. not a problem at all

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if everyone’s waitin fer the right one, who’s lookin fer who? +scratches head+

when my mum asked where i wanted to go fer a vacation, i hurriedly answered, dumaguete. she was kinda stunned when she got my answer, but relieved.. in exchange to a visit to singapore and malaysia, mum was really relieved. haha!

it’s the first time in seven years tat im gonna visit silliman. im excited as hell.. there was tis one girl who caught my eye in tat place, once when i was younger, more gullible, uglier and a lot thinner. lots has changed since tat time though.

how would she react if she’d see me like this? haha. (i hope somethin changed). She was the first, actual girl i courted. she was everythin a guy would dream of.. smart, fit, kind-hearted and beautiful. she’d wear her long black hair differently each day, and everyday, (cliche but true) she takes my breathe away. i loved her even right before she knew me. heee. she never took notice though. to her, i was the weird, creepy guy who sends flowers every week from august to october. i was part of a groupie. a total nerdo… but still, she was kind enough to entertain me, more like a consolation prize, i was happy though.. real happy to have talked to her. of course, as one would expect, she was a target.. ahem.. THE target of the most popular guys in campus.. they had the upper hand. eventually, the basketball player, the fraternity leader, the rotc commandant were priority.. then i faded away. but i kept my feelings towards her.

i really haf no idea how tis revolution started, but i vowed to make myself a better person, tat everytime i get refused, i’d make more effort to get accepted. everytime fall down, i’d contineously stand up, stronger than before. you get the picture..

so yea.. now im excited to see tat girl. i want to show her how i’ve grown.. and maybe show her how i’ve changed… and maybe, wit some stroke of luck, date her. i’ve waited seven years to have the guts to approach her.. i wun let this chance go by.. so yea, if your reading this, wait fer me? i know i said i’ll just drop by your workplace, but neh.. i’ll ask u to lunch. WHEW!

da vinci code (decoded) a repost.

i can’t help myself. hahaha!

the film, "the da vinci code" stirred up quite commotion lately. the more skeptics became negative bout the movie, the more it drew attention in, profit-wise. i guessed that the first two-week screening would be mobbed with brown addicts, people who wanted to prove the movie true, and/or otherwise… and i guessed right. being curious louie, i wasn’t able to contain myself, and watched the film on its 10th showing date.

i was generally amazed of the film. not that it appeared to me as the truth, but simply because of the ingeniuty of the writer to make such a storyline. the characters are not FICTITIOUS, but the film is FICTIONAL.

let me compare it with a film closer to the truth. "the day after tomorrow". all facts on that film is POSSIBLY true.. all forecasts on the film is POSSIBLY TRUE.. and is POSSIBLY gonna happen. It has been reported that some tropical countries had snow for the first time in centuries, but this didn’t consequent into the total destruction of the world.. (which remains to be proven)

this is the same with the contested film.. there is truth that when the bible was made, high ranking officials of the church debated on what were to be written on the doctrine. this has been embedded in roman history… but this didn’t mean that there was a "gospel according to mary magdalene".. and that she is the holy grail herself. (which also remains to be proven)

These remain to be proven, because the writers want us to think.. (or planning a sequel). everything else is purely coincidental. i analyze this as strategy. a strategy that writers use to get our attention. it produces a good foundation for a plot, and enhances climax. its a bit of a disadvantage though, because many of us doesn’t realize this.

i have been a catholic for as far as i can remember. the film did not make me less of a catholic…not an inch.

i think the reason why skeptics want the film out of the movie houses, because the film is directly questioning the foundation of the bible. think of this.. a book based on truth — a film exposes true base of a book.

BUT A FILM NONETHELESS.

if you wanna watch the movie, go watch.

if you don’t, then don’t.

god will still love you.

i fear ( a repost)

i fear

Too shy to be myself,
For I have the fear of being noticed.
Too sensitive to break someone’s heart,
For I have the fear of anger.

Too proud to say I’m sorry,
For I have the fear of giving in.
Too curious just to lay back and watch,
For I have the fear of missing out.

Too weak to show my strengths,
For I have the fear of envy.
Too embarassed to say what I feel,
For I have the fear of mockery.

Too scared to do the wronG thinG,
For I have the fear of punishment.
Too dreamy to think about real life,
For I have the fear of reality.

Too emotional to be in love,
For I have the fear of rejection.
Too worried about my health,
For I have the fear of pain.

Too cowardly to be brave,
For I have the fear of getting hurt.
But to sit down and write you a poem, my love,
I have no fear of thoughts.